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Wednesday, November 4, 2020

Switched On

 Well, as the saying goes....


The more things change.....the more they stay the same.


So we're still going strong.  We're still madly - deeply - passionately in love

We're still happy and healthy

We're still living our best lives and thriving - in spite of INSANE stress, a pandemic and general insanity.


BUT....we've switched things up for a little while.  I've created a new blog for my sweet husband....it's called "Madam Appolonia Switched On"....I'll go by MadApp there - and my sweet husband will be my darling boy for a while.  He needs to be submissive.  He wants to be submissive.  He needs some guidance, some leadership, some care and dominance.  I have a dominant/sadistic streak and have dug in.  

You can follow us being us on his blog :). 

madappswitchedon.blogspot.com 

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Switch Girl

Written after our switchy day 
(by my Master girl):

It all began in the shower.

This afternoon after getting some exercise,
my master and I hit the shower. 

She was dirty but I felt really dirty. 
After a quick wash down that she did of my body, 
I began to wash her. 

I scrubbed her face, breasts, arms and backside. 
Then I moved down. 
I scrubbed her amazing pussy 
    she recently shaved so it was nice and smooth. 
I dipped my finger into her pussy ever so gently. 
I worked my way around to the back. 
After washing her entire ass 
I slid my thumb deep inside her hole. 
   In and out, up and down
it wasn’t long before she had an orgasm.

Then two.

After she gained her wits, 
her attention turned to me. 
She ever so gently pinched my nipples. 
It was easy for her to tell 
I was going to be hers 
for the rest of the shower 
    if not the rest of the day. 

My master told me 
she wanted to shave my penis 
and make it smooth. 

Deep, deep inside I was hoping she’d shave me bare. 
I love being completely exposed to 
her touch, 
her gaze, 
her domination. 

Before I knew what was happening 
she had used her razor and 
shaved my balls bare and 
then she moved to the base. 

After a few quick strokes
I was much cleaner than before. 

To check out her work 
and to reinforce her control 
she grabbed my balls and cock in one hand 
and began to squeeze. 
With her other hand, she lubed her finger 
and plunged it deep inside my ass. 

After she worked it for a bit 
and kept squeezing with her other hand 
I came close to exploding. 

She sent me for the electric razor. 
I got soft inside thinking about what she might do next. 

She then told me to lift my leg high and continued to groom me. 
Before long she had done some careful landscaping. 
She whispered in my ear about how my her  bush was trimmed 
just the way she wanted.
I told her I wished it had been more, 
but she said I needed to be a good girl 
to earn anymore trimming 
and she expected me to keep up with the work she had done. She ordered me out of the shower with something to do.

After my master was done in the shower,
she came into the room where I was bent over the bed 
where I had put the dildo she requested on the nightstand. 

She quickly went to work first lubing me 
and stretching me with her fingers. 
As I started moaning, she took her large dildo
and told me to suck on it.

She then plugged me with a butt plug
and played with it in my ass.

As I got close, she walked around the bed,
Lay down and wiggled her way in front of me,
Grabbed the base of the dildo in my mouth,
put it on her pelvis and instructed me to give her head. 

She grabbed my head and repeatedly 
forced me onto her gigantic cock. 

Finally with me in a puddle of submission 
she had me lick her clit 
and suck on all of her come, 
cleaning her out like the good girl I was. 

She then went back to work on my hole. 
It was time to increase my training. 
She pulled the plug and began 
working in a real dildo in my hole. 

I wish I could say I took it like a good girl, 
but even with her coaching and care,
I could only hold it for a brief time. 

After a quick cleanup, 
my master bound my package in a bag 
and then at her request 
and with a tingle of glee 
she had me put on some big-girl panties
and told me to write about my afternoon.

I still tingle being bound up 
but more importantly knowing she did it to me, 
for me. 

How I love it when she takes care of her little girl. 

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Souvenir

We just got back from a fabulous, albeit exhausting vacation. My favorite souvenir is from the Tower of London and it will not be used in the kitchen ;-)


Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Status

So I told my husband that
I just couldn't.

I couldn't be dominant right now

I couldn't switch right now.

I just...couldn't.

I was so shut down -
Physically - my body wasn't reacting as it always has
Sexually, I was not...Just wasn't.

But his response was.
I'm here and
I'm ready.

So...slowly but surely

He's been helping me back.

It's one or two steps forward and
one step back.
But...
there's movement.

He's busy
I'm busy
Life's busy

But we're trying.

Yesterday I was most assuredly OFF.
I was cranky and a general pain in the ass.

Sir asked if I needed a spanking
and I said - YES.
But sadly, the kids were around
and it would make too much noise.
So...I said - we just couldn't right now.

So...he did something he hasn't done in ...
A LONG LONG TIME!

He put me over the side of the bed
and plugged me
with the large njoy plug!

IT WAS HUGE
but...it was effective!

I felt so much better -
so much more grounded
so much more at peace!

We're slowly making progress.

Friday, January 13, 2017

Not Feeling

So...I know - I say this periodically.

I'm broken

Strangely this time, I feel broken in a whole new way.

I have had friends who have
inadequate sex lives,
unfulfilled sex lives,
infrequent sex lives ...


I have had many women who I haven know who
didn't like sex
saw sex as a chore
were disinterested in sex ...

The trick was...
I wasn't ever one of those people.

Now I was a WICKED late bloomer.

I had been raped in high school
and had no real boyfriend while in high school
so I had no positive experience with regard to sexual activities.

I just had no interest and no exposure.

Now college is a different story.

I had my first boyfriend.
I had my first real love affair.
...now I wasn't actually having sex
until I was married...

...or for three-and-a-half-WEEKS...
which ever came first.

BUT, since then, I've been...
um...
totally enamored with sex!

I have had moments where my sex drive was
out of control.
I have had moments where my sex drive was
minimal.
But, minimal has always been short lived.

One thing I know about me...
I'm definitely a use-it-or-loose-it kinda girl.

Lucky for me, I've always used it :)

Sadly, we had a family crisis
late this fall - early winter.

We had to focus on making it through...
day by day
one step in front of the other

and sex...
well, we were
tired and stressed
and tired and worried
and tired and sad
and tired and terrified
and tired and angry
and tired and stressed.

So, sex...went by the wayside

and it's been a long time.

That combines with the fact that
my husband and I are both
ridiculously stressed and exhausted

we were both needing a great deal of support
and I think because we're in a
more fragile place,
I think submission fits both of our places at the moment.

Sadly, as time goes on,
I feel...less
not less THAN...
just less.

I don't feel.
I'm currently NOT feeling sexy
I'm not feeling sexual in any way
I'm not NEEDING sex
I'm not WANTING sex
I'm not FEELING sex.

It's terrifying...I've not ever been here
(for more than a brief moment)
since I started being a sexual being.

I can see how women who aren't in
desirous...needy...wanting
feel.

And I'm feeling sad and broken and
NOT like me.

I know so many who say it will come...
but He's not feeling Dominant in any way...
I'm not feeling submissive
He's wanting care and softness and comfort
and I'm shutting down.

I'm sure we'll come through...
this is just our moment...
sadly, it's a long fucking moment
and I hate it.




Sunday, January 1, 2017

Last Day of Vacation

...before he exited the shower, I whispered in his ear, 

"I want you to write a blog post aboutwhat happened in this shower!"


Here's what he gave me this evening.

(keep in mind, we were switches for years
and this sub is a sub at heart...
but can play her Master like a fiddle!)

Today wasn't the first time, but it was memorable.  

Mam came and woke me up from a light nap.  
She ushered me into the bathroom for a shower.

She had to desperately pee and wanted me there. 

She helped me to quickly strip and then all but pushed me 
into the cool shower.
It was warming,
but not fast enough.

I knew what she wanted
and I got on my knees in the shower.

We had been talking about her domination
and my fantasies.

I knew what she was doing 
and I was tingling on the inside!

I bent down and she peed on my face.
Marking me with her scent 
telling me how much she was in control.

After finishing, I proceeded to wash her body
from the sitting position on the floor of the shower.

After finishing, she ushered me to my feet
and asked me if I remembered her fantasy of the other day.

I was slow to admit that I did.

she turned me around and asked me to squat just a little.

She grabbed some cream rinse and before I knew it,
she was loosening my ass and masturbating me at the same time.

I was truly putty in her hands.

After what seems like ten minutes, 
she had milked me dry.

She helped me stand up, 
turned me around,
held me and cupped my sack.

Another stroke of dominance.

I could barely stand but I left the shower dreaming about what lay 
ahead on my last night of vacation.....


Saturday, September 17, 2016

Accepting What's Given

I had been a general pain in the ass for about thirty minutes...

Now in all fairness to me,
the behavior and and attitude were reciprocated.

Well, after going and running some chauffeur duties for my kids,
I came home deciding to announce,
"I have had it!" to Sir.

Well, I walked in, put my hands on my hip,
Saw Sir at the kitchen sink,
stomped up to Him with all sorts of attitude and

He wiped his wet hands off,
Grabbed my neck and
growled at me.

He spun me around,
Put my hands on the counter,
held them in one hand and
proceeded to spank the living hell out of my ass!

He started strong and kept it strong.
It hurt...from the get-go,
but because he was holding my hands tight to the counter,
I felt grounded and
because I had to take it,
I knew I could take it...

Does that make any sense?

It was so impactful...
and yes, I mean that in every way!

He then pulls me up,
spins me around,
and I put my hands around his neck and hug him.

He backs me up...and takes me to the bedroom.

I was cheeky once again,
and Sir told me to lay over the bed.

I really wanted to listen...
as so frequently doesn't happen with me.

My stubbornness and abstinence too frequently gets in my way.

But he steps back out of the room,
and I quickly not only lay over the side of the bed,
but I also pull down my pants and underwear.

He walks back in and tells me what a good girl I am.

He rubs the large metal kitchen spatula against my ass.

I KNOW that stings like hell!
He starts small and I take it well.

He builds, as my ass worms up,
and it's starting to feel so good.

He then is getting strong and
I'm moving a bit more,
so he puts his arm around my waist and
throws his leg over mine,
basically binding me.

Once again,
that tether helps me settle in and accept what's given

He then stops and says,
"Three good ones."

I always get nervous when He says that.

The first one stings so much...
It stings and hurts and stings and
oh - as it sinks in it feels
warm and wonderful.

He rubs my ass and then
!SWACK!

My foot kicks up as much as it can,
and I breath.

It once again...hurts so much...
but I breath and wait for the warm...

mmmmmmmm
Ya, there it is.

Then he says, "Are you a good girl?"
"Yes"
"Are you going to be a good girl?"
"Yes"
"You know you can get spankings when you're a good girl, right?"
"Yes"
"Are you going to earn those spankings?"
"Yes"

!SWACK!

I almost stand right up with the strength of the hit,
but his arm around my waist and
his leg over mine tighten
and I'm held in place

and I can feel wetness on my eyes.

And he rubs and rubs and then commands,
"On your knees."

I don't know if he has EVER done that.
Spanked the shit out of my ass and then
commanded me to my knees.

I am just about a puddle of goo!

I am frantic to get His zipper down and
my mouth onto his cock.

I suck and lick and stroke and suck and lick.
I snake my hand up his shorts so that I can fondle his balls
and I'm ravenous.  That's the only word I can think of.
Truly ravenous for His cock.

BEEP*BEEP*BEEP*BEEP

I FLY up and run to the bathroom,
as the alarm chime for our house notifies us that
our son has just opened the door to the house!

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Kink Store

We went on vacation for the weekend 
(it was a holiday weekend in the US)

Look what I found...walking down the street.

What was hilarious was that I knew what ...
everything was in the store.  

But more insane to me was how many 
of the items we had 
-at least something of the type
like various vibes, dildos, plugs, 
ropes, floggers, crops.....

It brought to light how full our toy box is.
Hmmmmm....maybe we are fully invested in...
our lifestyle :)

It was a fun store to spend some time in!








Just wish we were there 
longer to attend the classes. 
They looked like fun!

Friday, August 26, 2016

New Belt

The very very very naughty dog
ate my favorite, old, heavy, weathered and worn belt.

It was my very favorite.

I as so so sad :(

But...as Master didn't want his pants to fall down,
He purchased a new belt.

And...all new belts, need to be broken in, right?

"Lay over my bed, little girl," he commanded.

I was so excited.  

I laid over the bed and he quickly
began with medium strength lashes. 

It was stingy...and not completely in a good way.
I was trying to get into the right head space,
but it was really stingy.

He asked if I loved His new belt 
and I shook my head, NO!

That didn't help my case.

He continued on but about ever five,
he threw in a HARD lash...

but immediately after the strike,
He stood behind me and pumped into me.

His hard body against my lashed skin 
made the strike melt into ooey gooey warmth and wonderfulness!

Okay, Ya, I love the new belt!
(especially when it is wielded like he does!) 

Monday, August 15, 2016

Saturday, August 13, 2016

Lubes or Gels

Question...

Anyone have recommendations 
For lubes or gels
That are hot or cold

Like ginger or pepermint?

Where do you get them?
Brands you recommend or don't?
Advice or cautionary tales?

Totally interested and if we find some...

I'll tell you the tales :-)

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Ten Minutes and a Cane




What happens when you have ten minutes
alone...

before the kids come home?






















Sir gifts me with some time
to let go...
with the aid of a cane!

Happy me!

Monday, August 8, 2016

44 Odd Things You Don't Know About Me

I found this on Ronnie's who spotted it at Continued Journey :

1. Do you like blue cheese?
Yes - I didn't always, but I do now.


2. Have you ever smoked?
Cigarette during college while drinking - but a sum total of a few.  I want to try pot, but never have.


3. Do you own a gun? 

No

4. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? 
Peppermint is my all time favorite.  It's only available here during Christmas, so the rest of the times it's coffee ice cream.


5. Do you get nervous before Doctor visits?
Nope...what's the point?  

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
They're pretty gross when you think about them.

7. Favorite Movies?
Princess Bride, Harry Potter, Kung Fu Panda III, Pretty Woman

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Carmel Late or hot tea.

9. Do you do push ups?
I can...I should...I don't frequently.

10. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry?
A bracelet that my Mom gave me, a necklace(Collar) that my Husband gave me.

11. Favorite hobby? 

Photography, sex, spanking
12. Do you have A.D.D.?
Nope.

13. What’s the one thing you dislike about yourself?
My weight.


14. What is your middle name?
Which one?

15. Name three thoughts at this moment.. 

Crab chips rock, 
how will I get everything done that has to be done in the next 24 hours, 
I love the Olympics!

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
Water, Milk, Tea

17. Current worry? 
Getting everything done.

18. Current annoyance right now? 

Backing up pictures

19. Favorite place to be? 

With my husband...in the Mountains.

20. How do you ring in the new year?
With the family and frequently with a few friends.

21. Where would you like to go?
More places in Europe, Canada, Pacific Northwest, India, Asia, Australia.

(to bed)
22. Name three people who will complete this?
Sadly, I haven't been around so I'm not sure who is reading 


23. Do you own slippers?
Yes, I own them...but I can't remember the last time I wore them.

24. What color shirt are you wearing right now?
Spring Green

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
I don't know, I never have.

26. Can you whistle?
Yes.  I can whistle, but with my fingers I can REALLY whistle loudly! 

27. What are your favorite color?

Blue

28. Would you be a pirate?
Hmmmm, maybe.   If I was being pillaged by my pirate Sir - YES!


29. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Depends on the moment.  Today, it was "Fight Song" by Rachel Platten


30. Favorite girls name?
fiona :)

31. Favorite boys name?
hmmmm...Master? 

32. What’s in your pocket right now?
My license and credit card.

33. Last thing that made you laugh? 

My husband!

34. Best toy as a child?
Balls (basketball, volleyball, softball, soccerball)

35. Worst injury you ever had? 

Oh, you pick...there are so many...
blown knee, broken wrist, broken fingers, bruised spinal chord.

36. Where would you love to live?
In Ireland

37. How many TV’s do you have?
Four.

38. Who is your loudest friend?
The one I just talked to...but sadly, I may be the loudest :(

39. How many dogs do you have?
two

40. Does someone trust you?
Yes.

41. What book are you reading at the moment? 

Just finished the Masters and Mercenaries series by Lexi Blake and LOVED it!

42. What’s your favorite candy? 

Jelly Belly's, Nibs, Sour Patch Kids (only reds).

43. What’s your favorite sports team?
College Football.


44. Favorite month?
October or December or February...Maybe March.


This was fun...
Thanks Ronnie & Morningstar

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Feeling Disconnected from Blogland

Disconnected.

I feel sadly disconnected from blogland.

I stopped regularly posting.

I enjoy posting but life got busy and 
I think I just got out of the habit.

I also felt like several of those I followed 
left :(

and I lost my sense of connection 
with some that were here 
because I stopped posting and therefore
also stopped reading.

So, I'm trying to figure out how 
I find my way back.

I miss my connection to blogland.

My Sir and I are alive and well....
figuring our way through craziness - 
known as work, parenthood, family, and general insanity ;)

I do miss y'all - I miss your comments, 
I miss our conversations, 
I miss my connection.

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

The Gift of Catharsis AKA Spanking

  1. ca·thar·sis
    kəˈTHärsəs/
    noun
    1. 1.
      the process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions.
      synonyms:emotional release, reliefrelease, venting; 

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OK.  So I totally believe that 
Spanking should be a synonym.

Now hear me out.

FOR ME:
Spanking provides such an amazing release of endorphins
but not only that...it provides a release of stress adn strain.  
a release from my feelings of guilt.

It provides venting - typically by the spanker :)

I certainly can have an emotional purge

I so feel cleansed after a good spanking.

Now there are punishment spankings and fun spankings.

For me, both provide release and relief and general uplifting of spirits.
even if my spirits started out being high...they just get higher :)

So the other day, I was having a day.
I was snippy and short
I was frustrated with the world 
(most notably my family as they were close by)

I was short with Sir and in a general bad mood.

By mid afternoon, Sir and I had a spat.

He marched me into our room and proceeded to spank me.
He spanked in a concentrated place on one cheek.
He landed blow after blow, no warm up, all sting.
It hurt - not in a good way.

I was squirmy and fussy and didn't like the spanking.
He continued - and I took it.

After what seemed like...forever...
He switched to the other side.
He proceeded to do the same thing.
It hurt - and went on forever.

At the end, he pulled me up and hugged me and we talked.

We both off to do our thing 
and I found I was just in a funk.
I decided to go to our room and 
I laid down for a little bit.

My head hit the pillow and I burst into tears.
I sobbed..openly and loudly and NOT prettily :(

I just came on me.
I was so overcome with emotions.

I AM NOT A CRYER.
I don't hardly ever cry.

I got up and walked out and found Sir
who immediately brought me back to our room,
laid me down and held me close.

Once I was able to stop sobbing,
I realized that the spanking had allowed me to get it out.
To cry and let go.
It was so cathartic.
When I was done, and he held me and loved me
I felt a thousand miles high.
My spirits were lifted and my heart lighter.

Spanking is truly an amazing gift of Catharsis!

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Spanking Surprise Figging and Spanking

I laid down to go to sleep.
Sir finished getting ready for bed
and walked over to my side of the bed
He pulled down the covers and
Pulled up my night gown.

He proceeded to spank me...

my bottom slowly rose,
greeting the spanking -
every blow bringing my ass higher.

It felt so good.
I just relaxed and felt the world slip away
and I let the feeling of contentment wash over me.

When I found myself on my knees,
chest to the bed
and Sir's hand on my lower back...
He stopped and said,
"Don't Move."

He walked away.

WHAT??

I waited and he walked out the bedroom door.

DOUBLE WHAT????

I waited and waited...

When he walked back in,
I expected the spanking to continue.

He spread my cheeks and
immediately put something against my ass

It was hard and cool and
He was pushing it inside of me.

With no lube...that meant one thing.

GINGER!

I was so excited...it had been a long time since
I was figged!

He pushed it in...making sure it was seated.

I never saw it...just felt

My breathing became really rapid...
to say the least.

At first it was just cool and filling.
But quickly it started warming.

It must have been a very fresh root...
the heat took over quickly.

I was breathing and moaning and
feeling.

Sir talked to me...
but I couldn't focus on words...

I was so overcome with feeling.

He put his ear right next to my ear and asked
(maybe again)
"Too Much?"

"um...um...i...it's...um, um, um, 
it's...um...u...it's...it's....ummmmmmmm
almostbutno" I finally blurted out.

He rolled me onto my side,
slid me close to Him and held me.

He periodically spanked me...
making my ass clench together,
which upped the heat.

I held onto him...so tight...
wanting to crawl inside of him.

The heat was so overwhelming.
My body was moving - nerve endings firing.
My clit was pulsing.
My hips were writhing
My moaning was loud
and I was overcome with ...sensation.

I have no idea how much time passed....
He finally turned me back over onto my knees...
chest and face to the bed.

He spanked me HARD...three times.
He spaced them out for maximum burn.
Each spank made my ass milk the ginger
which put my ass on fire!

After the third, he removed the ginger and again
commanded, "Don't Move"

I was still trying to get my breathing under control...
my throbbing clit under control.

When he came back,
he rolled me over...
made me cum over and over and over,
prior to taking me.  Prior to fucking me...
Prior to sending me into another wonderful orgasm,
as my pussy then got to milk his wonderful cock.

It was amazing!!!!



Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Consistent Submission

I do marvel how
when I am not in a submissive place,

I can be a
   critical, 
      controlling
         bitch.

Lord, please help me,
I need to be pulled back
into some
consistent
Submission
to help me soften!

Sunday, June 12, 2016

Morning Switch

Sunday I woke up and
as so frequently happened
I was snuggled close to my husband
and my hand caressed his chest.

He has his morning wood
pulsing against my leg
which is thrown over his leg.

His nipples harden
as my finger tips graze them.

I begin to play...
pinching and twisting and enjoying them.

I pull up my shirt and
pull him over
he attaches onto my breast and
I start talking...
whispering into his ear

engendering his feelings of
submission
and my dominance.

There are Sundays that we switch
and there are Sundays that we don't.

When we do switch, it's rarely for long...
typically just a session.

...but today, it was for about ten minutes...
while I worked him up.

And then...
He grabbed my hands, forced them up,
Put them on the headboard
and commanded me to keep them there.

I held on quickly and thankfully.
He pushed my legs apart
and shoved his fingers in.

"Oh, do you feel that?
You are soaking wet!"

He finger fucked my pussy,
quickly,
slamming his fingers into me.
building me up quickly

and throwing me over the edge of orgasm,
He shoves his boxers down
and climbs on top of me

and his cock feels like heaven.

Sometimes it slides in and
I feel so complete...

Like my pussy was made for his cock.

He moves...
my legs go around his waste,
gripping onto him,

He moves and takes a hand and
pinches and rolls my nipple

and once again, I'm close.

He pulls out,
waits for me to look into his eyes.
He slams in,
lowers his head and
kisses me silly,
while he begins to fuck me

into another amazing orgasm.

One that lasts...keeps pulsing and pulsing.

When I come back to reality,

I look up at him and say...
"did you cum?"

He smiles...
of course he did.

It was...amazing.
Fulfilling.
Completing.
Wonderful.
Switchy and
Perfect!

Thursday, June 9, 2016

Business Trips

So my Sir has been traveling for work

quite a bit.

Should slow down soon...
(so he says)

but I must say,

Business travel does NOTHING for the sex life 

Having a consistent
D/s intimate relationship
when my Sir is crazy engaged
and stressed and focused on ...
not me ...
AND
he is hundreds...or
thousands of miles away!

OK - so when I re-read this,
it sounds so superficial and self centered :(

so...
OK...pitty party for one is over.

I'm digging deep for supportive sub :)

Friday, May 27, 2016

the Hand

Happiness

:)

From a single swat from my Master