I touched my Sir's cock tonight for the first time in two weeks.
How absolutely bizarre.
It felt so unusual.
Sir even commented,
that is the longest I have gone without touching him in 20 years.
It felt...risque.
He felt soft.
His head felt so bulbous.
So silky.
So large in my hand as I rubbed up and down.
He was hard.
He was so hard in my hand.
I loved touching and feeling him.
But as much as I loved touching him,
it was just a novelty.
I felt no surge of need.
No desire to go further.
No salivation, wanting or needing it in my mouth.
No wetness between my legs.
But I was happy to have it in my hand.
....and it is a beginning. Knowing you two, the rest will quickly follow. Hugs abby
ReplyDeleteThanks abby! I appreciate your encouragement.
Deletehugs,
fiona
i agree with abby...it's the beginning..slowly, it will all get back there. hugs
ReplyDeleteThanks HS. I'm not very patient...that slowly think is killing me!
Deletehugs,
fiona
Fiona,
ReplyDeleteGood start.
Big, Big Hug,
joey
Thanks joey. I can use the Big Big hug!
Deletehugs,
fiona
One step at a time, Fiona. In time, your libido will come back...for now your body and mind are healing from grief...and all your energies are there. You will come back from this, I promise, though it hardly feels that way just now. Sending lots and lots of hugs and energies...
ReplyDeleteremember you are loved...
nilla
You're so right...right now, it feels like my libido has gone on hiatus! UGH. I am not patient and it's so frustrating to not be ... me.
DeleteI appreciate your friendship, nilla!
hugs,
fiona