Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Beautiful

"I just look so...."

"You look good, Fiona."
"No, I look lumpy and bumpy and fat."

He walks right up to me - 
grabs my hair, 
tilts my head up 
and smacks my cheek!

I close my eyes and breath 
and notice my eyebrows unfurrowing.

"Say it again, Fiona."

I pause and he waits.
"Say it again." he growls low in my ear.

"I look lumpy and bumpy and fat." I say again.
Smack

"Say it again"
I breathe, knowing what's coming.
"I look lumpy and bumpy and fat." I say more tentatively.
Smack

"Say it again."

I shake my head no.

"Look at me, Fiona."

I look up, with tears in my eyes,
Not from pain but from endearment.

"You look beautiful and I am honored to go anywhere with you on my arm."

I grab him and hug him and cry.
It has touched me so deeply and profoundly 
that he has done this, said this.

I look at him and with all of the emotion that I can I say,
"Thank you. That just means so much"

Looking in my eyes, he says,
"I love you
You ARE beautiful
And you are MINE"

I ADORE THIS MAN!!!

16 comments:

  1. That is so wonderful that he did that. My sir also gets upset with me when I have low self esteem. :). Sounds like he loves you very much!

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    1. Thanks dag,

      He's never really gotten upset...but I appreciate that he did. He does love me very much - as I do him!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. Yeah, Sir doesn't like me speaking bad of my self image either. He is really trying to get me to just say I am fat - over and over, not because He thinks it, so that it will lose its meaning to me and we can move farther into our relationship. I believe Sir Q was doing the same by making you say it over and over. Along with correcting you for speaking so ill of yourself.

    It's hard having a good self esteem. Society has ridiculed body physique for so long, we grew up with it ingrained into our minds we need to look a certain way.

    *hugs*

    I love the way he reaffirmed that you are HIS, so as long as HE thinks you are beautiful that is all that matters.

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    1. I think you're right HS. And it IS hard to work on our self-esteem our self-image. I love that too, the way he reaffirmed that I am his and that I am beautiful to him. He is so wonderful.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. OH...!
    This just touched me *so* deeply. I know you are beautiful, I hear it in your voice here...and that spiritual beauty is the kind that lasts, through round hips, and wrinkles, kids, and chores and all else...its a beauty that goes way beyond skin deep. I think I love your Sir. :) This was an amazing thing to read. Thank you for sharing it with us.

    Hugs,

    nilla

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    1. Thank you nilla. I don't know that I'm beautiful, but he's helping and I'm working on it. He's a pretty fabulous guy, that Sir of mine. I think i love him too =)

      Thanks nilla - thrilled to see you on my blog! I missed you.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. This was just so right Fiona! It seems there are quite a few of us that get in trouble on this particular issue. The way he handled it sounds like it was perfect for you.

    Nothing gets ones attention more than a smack to the cheek whether it be in times like these or at play.

    You are both lucky to have eachother.

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    1. We are lucky DB to have each other. He's such a great influence on me. I am grateful that he loves me as much as he does. He's a good man.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  5. Wow, what an amazing statement for him to say

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    1. It was cammie....i am so grateful for his kindness.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  6. I have no longer have body issues, not because I'm some kind of super model, believe me, I'm far from it. The reason I don't, is because of years of hearing the same kind of thing from Musicman. I no longer worry about what I look like reflected in the mirror. I worry about what I look like reflected in his eyes when he looks at me. It's always the most beautiful reflection I've ever seen. So remember, don't worry about the mirror, don't worry about what others think, look in his eyes, that is where the truth of your beauty lies.

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    1. I love your Musicman. What you wrote is touching....that means a lot. My reflection in his eyes...I need to make that my mantra....thank you for that! Thank you Faerie!!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  7. Fiona,

    That guy of yours is amazing. You made my day. Beautiful post.

    Hug,
    Joey

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    1. He is kinda amazing, joey. I think I'll keep him =) and thank GOD he's keeping me!!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  8. I must unabashedly swoon at your man for a moment. My hubby won't mind.

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    1. Thanks BE...I think he's pretty fabulous!

      Hugs,
      fiona

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-fiona