we're faced with a lot of change
in the next several months.
I will hold on with both hands and try.
I've cried a lot over the past couple of days.
Sir has been kind,
but I've told him I'm done.
Not marriage wise…
just submission wise.
Funny, I'm always, ALWAYS worried
that he will call it quits (not marriage, but Dom)
And here I am saying I'm done.
I don't expect him to just let me stop,
but I am mentally
He reins me in and I fight…
like REALLY fight.
I absolutely refuse and fight back.
He spanks, I spank back,
He grabs and I pinch,
He commands and I refuse,
He pulls and I push.
I just cannot find my submission
or any sort of calm or
at the moment.
I know it will change, but it's going to be
difficult over the next several months.
So…I will not whine and cry here all the time,
but I thought I would let y'all know what was going on.
We'll be fine and get through,
I'll find a better attitude,
but I haven't found it yet.