Today...my physical therapist said,
"You have to embrace the pain
and accept the pain.
It has to be something you make one with,
because you will be in a lot of pain
to get where you need to be."
she said this and I thought...
hmmmmmmm....mind slipping to kink world
I like pain. I love spankings and floggings and whips and belts and canes
and nipple torture and .... and ... and ....
Then she took my leg and pushed it past where it actually moves and
I literally saw a red film pass through my eyes and almost past out...
and I thought...
PAIN IS THE ENEMY!!!!
NO ONE LIKES PAIN!!!!!
Then...after the film passes and I breath again
and the pain recedes, I think some more.
Oh...that amazing difference.
Makes me wonder if studies have been done on the difference between
erotic pain and painful pain.
Because erotic pain starts off painfully
...and then it morphs
lovely Velvety, Warm, fabulousness.
and I'm sure it's psychological...
it's where my mind takes me...
where my mind takes my body,
takes that pain.
Because obviously we've probably mostly all had
spankings or slaps or impacts of some nature that were just simply painful
for whatever reason...
because they were punishment and not meant to be erotic,
they were not in the dynamic of an M/s,D/s,Top/bottom,Spanker/spankee dynamic...
but I wonder...how can I tap into that transformative place...
is it possible to transform my pain into erotic pain?
Can I find my Velvety, Warm, fabulousness?