Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Loss

I have had a loss and am at a loss.  

I had a loss in my family recently.  It was unexpected, extremely sad, and well before time.  

I've traveled, attended a visitation and funeral, spent time crying, laughing, praying, thinking.  Spent glorious time with family.  Oh, I do love my family.  They bring me comfort and strength.   My siblings are nourishing to me.  They've got my back, always.  We are a solid unit when we are together.  We are sarcastic, quick whited, no-holes barred, give each other tons of shit, but we're tight!

At the same time, Sir has been away on business.  I've not done death and sadness and major emotional overloads without Sir.  I feel his absence to the core of my being.  I miss him intensely.  I don't simply miss his dominance, though I certainly do miss that.  I don't simply miss the sex, though I could use that connection, that excitement, that exertion, those orgasms!  I don't simply miss talking to him and hugging him and snuggling with him, though that is seriously leaving a gap that is widening in my soul.  I miss him, I miss US, I miss......

I have had a loss and am at a loss.  

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I hope to be back to my regularly scheduled blog life shortly...
maybe next week.

34 comments:

  1. Sorry you are going through this hard time Fiona especially with Sir away. It's good you had your siblings around you at this time. Hoping things get back to normal soon.

    Hugs
    db

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    1. Thanks DB. It is good to have siblings around.

      Hugs,
      fiona

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss fiona. Going through the loss and emotion would be so much more difficult without Sir. I am glad you have such a strong family!! I will keep sending positive thoughts you way and hope to see you writing again soon :)
    Hugs,
    Alexis

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    1. Thank you so much Alexis. It is wicked rough without Sir. I am thrilled for my family, without which it would have been insurmountable. But, I really felt Sir's absence.

      hugs,
      fiona

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    1. Thank you ksst! I can use the hugs!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. I am very sorry for your loss Fiona.

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  5. I'm so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time.
    ((Hugs))

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    1. st, I appreciate your thoughts and hugs!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  6. Fiona,

    I am so sorry for you loss. I am glad you had your family there but I know how much you need your Sir during this time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Fiona.

    Big long hugs from me.... ((((((((((((((Fiona))))))))))


    Belle

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    1. You know it is just NOT the same without Sir here to be my rock. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers and HUGS!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  7. I am sorry that you have been going through such a difficult time, but glad that you have had your family around you. My thoughts are with you all xx

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    1. Thanks joolz. I am grateful for my family as well. I appreciate your thoughts!!

      hugs,
      fiona
      xx

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  8. So sorry for your loss. Hope you're back in Sir's arms soon.
    x

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    1. Oh DF...ME TOO! I just so desperately want his arms around me!!

      hugs,
      fiona
      x

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  9. Just warm thoughts and hugs

    x

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    1. Thanks tori. I appreciate your thoughts and hugs!

      hugs,
      fiona
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  10. I am sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. Thank you joey. I hope you are having the time of your life - as it is Thursday!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  11. I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    1. Thanks Mrs. D. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  12. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Glad that you can find some solace in your family. Hope Sir is able to be back soon. hugs abby

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    1. Yes, me too abby. I was very sorry! I can't wait for Sir to come back to me. It was harder than I thought it would be.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  13. Oh Fiona, {{{HUGS}}}, I'm so sorry you are going through this and without your Sir to comfort you. It's nice to have family to support and comdort you, but it just isn't the same as having your Sir. I hope he is home soon :)

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    1. Faerie, you hit the nail on the head. It's just not the same without Sir here to comfort and love and secure me to his side. I cannot wait for his return!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  14. Ah fiona, loss is so much harder when they aren't by our side.
    I hope that he gets to come home soon.

    I am sorry for your loss, and I think that such things always put us at a loss.

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    1. Yes, lil. It is so much harder. I feel like I really have to hold so much more inside when he's not there for me to lean on.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  15. Fiona,
    I am so sorry. I do hope you can find strenght in your family and your Sir.

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    1. Thank you greengirl! I do find great strength when I am with my siblings. They are amazing and we are a force to be reckoned with when together. That said, it will be so much better when Sir is back home!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  16. I'm so sorry you're going through this ~ hope you feel better soon, and that you Sir is back soon! Sending positive energy...

    sofia

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    1. Thank you sofia. I'm thrilled he's back! I appreciate the positive energies...I'll need it!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  17. I'm sorry Fiona, for all the losses. You are bot alone, we are all out here all over the world thinking of you.

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    1. Thanks Natasha. I appreciate your kind words and support!

      hugs,
      fiona

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I appreciate them all and will endeavor to answer EVERY comment if at all possible!

THANK YOU
-fiona