I wanted to explore something that was different during that night.
My Sir...my Dom...was more sadistic than he has ever been. He struck with a force that he has NEVER given. He struck places on my body he's never struck, he struck me to hurt, seriously hurt. He took me to the edge and pushed right past several of my boundaries, maybe quite a bit past.
I was terrified about many things including:
- Having my clit, directly hit
- Having my nipples hit with a direct concentrated blow
(with something other than a hand or flogger)
- Having orgasms pulled out of me after I was really sure I could go not have another
- Having an ultimatum to have an orgasm in a given time period
He was so much more, "in the zone" than he has EVER been.
He took such pleasure, such exquisite pleasure in my pain.
He was enjoying himself.
I could see it in his eyes, and hear it in his voice.
He was sure of himself and loving what he was doing.
Oh My God, it was such an amazing turn on!
I loved his sadism.
I loved my masochism.
I had many moments when I though of safe wording...
something I have never, like seriously NEVER, thought about doing before.
In our over twenty years of playing, I've NEVER come this close to using my safe word.
He confidently walked a fine line and it was HOT.
He Saw, He Conquered, and He Came!