Saturday, April 6, 2013

Spring Beating (Processing)

So After my Spring Beating (the past three posts 1, 2 & 3),
I wanted to explore something that was different during that night.

My Sir...my Dom...was more sadistic than he has ever been.  He struck with a force that he has NEVER given.  He struck places on my body he's never struck, he struck me to hurt, seriously hurt.   He took me to the edge and pushed right past several of my boundaries, maybe quite a bit past.

I was terrified about many things including:

  • Having my clit, directly hit
  • Having my nipples hit with a direct concentrated blow
    (with something other than a hand or flogger)
  • Having orgasms pulled out of me after I was really sure I could go not have another
  • Having an ultimatum to have an orgasm in a given time period
He was so much more, "in the zone" than he has EVER been.  
He took such pleasure, such exquisite pleasure in my pain.  
He was enjoying himself.  
I could see it in his eyes, and hear it in his voice.  
He was sure of himself and loving what he was doing. 

Oh My God, it was such an amazing turn on!  

I loved his sadism.  
I loved my masochism.

I had many moments when I though of safe wording...
something I have never, like seriously NEVER, thought about doing before. 
In our over twenty years of playing, I've NEVER come this close to using my safe word.  
He confidently walked a fine line and it was HOT.  

He Saw, He Conquered, and He Came!

16 comments:

  1. I'm banning your blog from BIKSS's reading list!

    This was heartening to read tho, cos it's proof that the growing and the learning and the playing never ceases.

    Thanks for sharing your life with us :)

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    1. HRMPF....why would you ban BIKSS from my blog? I'm sooooo sad now!

      Thanks for being a part of my life. I am a strong believer that we never stop learning...and why would one EVER stop playing? That's just silly!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. Fiona, Thanks for sharing your three parter!
    You're so accepting of the S&M, I would struggle with it. I'm glad you didn't have to safeword and the fine line was well travelled.
    DF

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    1. Thanks for reading this lengthy bit, DF. I appreciate your joining me in blogland.

      I'm glad I didn't have to safeword, either. I don't think it would have been the end of the world, but it would have changed the experience, for sure. He walked the line with precision! YEA!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. fiona,

    Thank you for a very detailed description,but also for describing the emotions you felt.

    You have a very special relationship that allows you both to push your limits. His limit and yours.

    You most be both on an incredible emotional high right now.

    Again, thanks,

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. You know, it's interesting. I think we both had an amazing high for several a few days, but...I crashed, big time. That kinda sucked. But the high was higher and lasted longer than the low.

      We do have an amazing relationship. It is a gift, to find the person who completes you. I know it sounds cliche, but it's true. We do that for eachother.

      I'd say that because we've been together so long, we can seriously push our limits, but realistically, we always have. And I am grateful. I love to push, and lord knows I love to have mine pushed!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. Those posts were such a tribute to the trust you both have, and to the hard work you have put into your relationship. I love that you accept and love your masochism...thanks for sharing your feelings.
    hugs abby

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    1. Yes, miss abby. We certainly have complete and implicit trust in each other. We also work really FUCKING hard on our relationship. We always have. We will share our home with others for a time, but we will grow old, together. So we need to make sure NOT to neglect our relationship in the process so we're still in love with each-other and have an amazing marriage when we're through sharing our home.

      And masochism...YES, I am a masochist. I love being beaten, pinched, poked, fucked, humiliated, objectified, used.....I also love being loved, caressed, kissed, adored, being made-love-to, sucked, nibbled...

      Thanks for sharing in my blog conversations. I sooooo appreciate your friendship!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  5. Thanks Fiona,
    What you have described looks so far away from what Lisa and I are doing. Still, I recognize so much. The fundament is the same. This ultimate trust. This togetherness. This being "one".

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    1. Hehehehehe....it's just intensity. We both seem to have marriages to one we adore and who adores us. THANK GOD! TTWD is just that. It's the thing WE do. It's what works for Sir and I...and ttwd for you and LIsa is just that, what works for you and Lisa. But, like abby said, I think we both work hard on cultivating a relationship that works well for us.

      Thanks Bas!!

      Hugs,
      fiona

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  6. Awesome! I loved your recent posts so much I sent a link to my Master. He said "Just wait..."

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    1. Wow, that's a great compliment ksst! I appreciate it! It's always ... ALWAYS ... amazing that ANYONE wants to read what I type, let alone SHARE it! WOW! Thank you!

      I can't wait to see what he means by "Just wait...." I look forward to reading!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  7. These were awesome posts :) It is seriously hot when they push just the right amount and barriers fall.

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    1. Thanks faerie. Isn't it wonderful that they push...that they don't accept where we are, but push us past here to a wonderful...there! The barriers that come down are soooo liberating. It's a GIFT!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  8. This was beautiful, its so intense exploring these emotions, pushing boundries, the trust that is needed to explore new areas etc

    It is just so hot being taken that bit further.

    x

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    1. You are soooo right tori! It is SO FUCKING HOT being taken just a bit further. He's brave to take that leap and push me....not knowing what my reaction will be or if he's going to do it right, as it's unexplored territory. I trust him implicitly and love that he actually WANTS to push. I am sooooo appreciative!!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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-fiona