Thursday, February 20, 2014

He's Not Struggling

I've been feeling supremely un-submissive recently.  
Sir and I are doing all right.  

Busy.
Crazy Busy.
Insanely Crazy Busy.

The other night, we were going to sleep.

I whisper,
"Maybe this was a phase. 
maybe we should…
well we could…
just stop.  
You know, 
maybe we're over it?"

I felt like we haven't had a whole lot of D and s 
with all of the life, stress and stuff.  

I also have this niggling worry 
in the back of my head, 

because he's the one who gave up 
any submission with the end 
of our switching regularly.  

He responded quickly
and in no uncertain terms.  

He grabbed my hair forcefully and pinched my ass 
and explained 

that although things get busy 
and chaotic 
and sometimes I struggle with my submission…

he's not struggling with his Dominance.  

He expects better.
He expects more from me
and will be working on it.  

I just about melted…

maybe that's why it's so warm here now =)

Now to get my head in the right place!  
Any ideas??)

22 comments:

  1. Good for him! I don't have any ideas for you but it sounds like he does.

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    1. Thanks ksst. I hope he has ideas!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. Fiona, I would have sunk to my knees with mouth wide open had K said something like that to me!! Talk about putting my head in the right place? Oh my!!

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    1. Oh Mickey, If I hadn't been laying down, I would have! I am so grateful for his response!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. Sounds like he has the ideas for getting your head in the right place. You probably just have to follow his lead.

    FD

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    1. I have to let go and follow, FD. It's sometimes tough when I'm not there…but I'm going to work hard at it.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. Follow His lead. I would say He has been waiting for you too come to Him.

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    1. I'm going to work on it HS. I am grateful for his response…so grateful!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  5. Well done Sir Q. You are very lucky Fiona to have such a special partner in life.

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. I know, joey! I am so incredibly lucky!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  6. A man who knows what he wants and then acts on it. You gotta love it.

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    1. I do…absolutely adore when he says what he wants and expects me to follow!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  7. Suggestions.....hhmmmm.....
    I work to support him in the mundane day to day to keep my submissive side alive when it seems we have no time for it. I make him a coffee, give him a quick hug from my knees when he is sitting on the couch...something quick to keep my head in the right place.

    I am sure there will be no problem finding your submission with Sir Q's help =)

    XOXO

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    1. Great suggestion Pearl. Thank you so much!!! It's that headspace!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  8. Finding something you have lost on your own is a struggle. I'm sure SirQ will be helping you find it again.
    Hugs
    DF

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    1. I am hopeful and ready! Thanks DF!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  9. Dear Fiona,
    If come with the solution please share it....
    I'm kinda in the same place.... :(

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    1. I'm working hard on following his lead. I have to let go…stop fighting.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  10. aw, bless him - that made me lol a little!

    Making sure all I'm healthy phsyically and have enough sleep and so on helps, then just trying to do all the things I ought to do, but trying and keep mindful about it, in particular about it being all for him, can help my head get back where I want it xx

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    1. Well, I'm seriously in trouble…I'm never getting enough sleep. But I do appreciate your suggestions and you're right…being mindful of him … his needs and desires is key!

      hugs,
      fiona

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-fiona