Dom and Dom

Well, things have been…

STRESSSSSSSFUL 

here.

I had a particularly rough day yesterday
Sir tried…he really did.

I was feeling…

depressed
overwhelmed
UNsubmissive
pissy


Ya, so … we had a rough afternoon.

After a date that had been planned 
with friend,
which required us to put our 
general discontent aside and 
act normally

we laughed
we reset.

We talked on our way home.

Sir said that he knew I was 
feeling particularly
UNsubmissive

and that maybe I would never have
submissiveness as 
a constant state,
or even an instinctual state,
but that he knew that it was a state
that I found much contentment in.

He said since he has been Dominant consistently
for such a lengthy period now, 
that it IS becoming a more 
natural, instinctual state for Him

and that when I am UNsubmissive…
Dominant in behavior
and He is as well, that 
we CLASH 
significantly.

I thought that it was particularly
insightful of him…

and,
strangely,

soothing for me.  

I felt like that meant that …
for the umpteenth time,
He WANTED…HE WANTED
to be Dominant 

and he desires my submission!

And even more,
I NEED it.  I am so off kilter when I am not.

So I am working on embracing my 
submission…
on letting go and letting him catch me.