Well, things have been…
I had a particularly rough day yesterday
Sir tried…he really did.
I was feeling…
Ya, so … we had a rough afternoon.
After a date that had been planned
which required us to put our
general discontent aside and
We talked on our way home.
Sir said that he knew I was
and that maybe I would never have
a constant state,
or even an instinctual state,
but that he knew that it was a state
that I found much contentment in.
He said since he has been Dominant consistently
for such a lengthy period now,
that it IS becoming a more
natural, instinctual state for Him
and that when I am UNsubmissive…
Dominant in behavior
and He is as well, that
I thought that it was particularly
insightful of him…
soothing for me.
I felt like that meant that …
for the umpteenth time,
He WANTED…HE WANTED
to be Dominant
and he desires my submission!
And even more,
I NEED it. I am so off kilter when I am not.
So I am working on embracing my
on letting go and letting him catch me.