Sunday, May 5, 2013

From Wicked to Contentment

Something wicked this way came.....


Sir has been traveling.  Not a long trip.  But while he was away, it feels like there has been a revolt.
From younger, from older, from me!

My kids have intermittently pitched ROYAL fits.  It has taken all of the will power I can muster to not loose my patience.

I've had a RUN-IN with my mother and was ... um .... what's just a shade past irate?

I had to sell something large which is a wickedly stressful thing for me.  I hate loathe dickering for prices, and as an added bonus, I suck at it.

Oh, and last night before bed Sir mentioned in passing that well after a decade of a tradition with my kids, his ENTIRE family has magically all decided to do something different, without conversation with ... I don't know ... THE PARENTS!

UGH.

Where is this going you ask?  Well. . .
I slept well last night.  Yea!
Sir comes home today.  Yea!

And.  And.

I just hung up the phone and told him that I was bitchy and belligerent.  I'm clearly in a mood.  I KNOW it will pass.  I KNOW I will get over it.  I KNOW parents will be parents...

...and I have some sympathy because I am one...
...but I need to remember NOT to pull the same shit with my children and their kids when they have them.

I want the comfort of submission.  No, it's not comfort.  It's...CONTENTMENT.  That's the word.  I am content, at ease, comfortable - peaceful even - when I am living in that head space.  I spent too long being large-and-in-charge.  I am sure Sir will make quick order of reasserting his dominance and I will welcome it.

6 comments:

  1. Ah, Fiona, I spent a long time being that in control chick.....thought I would always be. Luckily, I met someone who knew me better...it is true, I so much more content as a submissive..aren't we lucky to have that!
    hugs abby

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    1. We are so lucky abby, my friend. I count my blessings every day and Sir is at the top of my list!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. Families! we love them but heck they can be frustrating lol

    me and my mum tend to butt heads over my children a fair bit, and i spend a lot of time biting my tongue.

    Its difficult sometimes getting that balance of having to be in control at times but also maintaining that submissive mindset.

    x

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    1. OH TORI, CAN THEY EVER!!!

      You are so good. I think I have bit my tongue about as much as I can. Yes you're right, that balance is illusive sometimes. For me, it is especially illusive when Sir's traveling.

      Thanks for your understanding and support!
      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. We love parents, but they can drive us crazy.

    Contentment. Perfect.

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. YES! That is sooooooo true!

      hugs,
      fiona

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-fiona