Sunday, May 19, 2013

Off-kilter

So...I'm feeling a bit off-kilter.

You see, Sir Q is a bit, um...off his game.
He's been medically laid up and that has resulted in a larger degree of personal stress.

Worry about him,
            taking care of him
            and the younger folk.
                     Picking up ALL slack
                     and household chores
                                  and running up and down stairs
                                  and driving EVERYONE in the house.
                                               and cooking and cleaning and mommying
                                               and daddying ... and ... and ... and.

So that's been a lot.

Add to this,
that we will have company coming this week
for another special occasion at our house.
AND....AND...AND...

I'm off.

I am NOT:

  • depressed
  • tired (or more tired than usual)
  • grumpy
  • impatient
  • resentful
  • worried
  • overly stressed (at the present)
  • overly taxed (at the moment)
  • toooo sexually frustrated (heheheh...I am pretty insatiable, though)


So....what am I?
I'm off.

I'm NOT feeling....
it's not that I'm NOT feeling submissive,

I'm just...YUP!
That's It!
I'm not.
I'm not feeling submissive.
No biggie.

Here's the catch.
I want to be.
I do.

I know this will pass.
I know things will reset
when Sir is feeling better
and craziness has uncrazied.

But,
for right this moment,
I'm off-kilter
because,
I'm not feeling submissive
And
I miss it!

14 comments:

  1. Hi Fiona! So sorry you are feeling off, especially after such a great playtime with Sir Q recently.

    It sucks when your not feeling it and all you want to do is get that feeling back. (kind of there right now because we are in the middle of the move). As you said all will be back to normal soon and being on feels so great after being off.

    Hoping Sir Q get better quickly and you have a great time with your company.

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    1. I hope your move goes well DB and that you re-settle in to find your new norms soon as well.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. Hi Fiona, I hope SirQ is back in good health soon. I expect you're missing his energy and it's thrown you off balance. Hopefully you'll get back on track and lose the off kilter feeling soon too.
    hugs
    DF

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    1. Thanks DF. I AM missing that energy - that's a good explanation.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. fiona,

    I hope Sir Q is better soon. Good luck handling your very busy week.

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. Thanks joey. I appreciate your wishes.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. Hope Sir Q is soon back to good health. I so know how you are feeling....it is like something is missing, the something that keeps you calm, cool, and YOU! Hang in there....
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks abby. I know YOU know how medical predicaments can de-rail your life. And YES...I MISS THE CALM, DAMN-IT!!! heheheh can you tell?

      hugs,
      fiona

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  5. Actually, ultimately, aren't you being ULTRA submissive? All of that is NO fun to tackle on your own, so doing it all so he doesn't have to = submitting? Yesno?

    That's how I have to come at it anyway, to even survive those times. And even then, at the end of those times there is this wall of irritation and "strength" that I'd really rather just be left alone. Finding the softness again usually requires brute force.

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    1. I like that thought - that is a wonderful way to look at this
      ...but I miss Sir's strength and control and
      ... Yup...I miss his presence in our dynamic.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  6. Like Conina said, you are doing a lot that could be thought of as submissive, sometimes I just have to make my mind think that way. My way of submitting to him is by taking care of him.
    But I see the reason for your comment on my blog now.
    {{Sending you a big virtual hug!}}

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    1. hehehe...ya - that's why I left that comment. I read your post to a friend this week and she really appreciated it!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  7. sending hugs and healing whammies...it's a hard spot to be ALL of everything for everyone...and no small wonder you're not feeling submissive. Right now you have the "take charge" gene running rampant....I'll expect that sometime when SirQ is feeling better, he'll pull your submission up from your toes and remind you who's who. :)

    HUG

    nilla

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    1. Thanks, 'nilla. we can use the whammies. I seriously do have the gene run amuck...I love the thought of him pulling it out of me!!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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Thank you very much for sharing your comments. This blogland world has become so much more meaningful because of the conversations that y'all have with me through comments...REALLY!

I appreciate them all and will endeavor to answer EVERY comment if at all possible!

THANK YOU
-fiona