Thursday, June 4, 2015

On and Off

So...blogland...

I'm struggling.

it feels so like I have been sexually, submissively, personally

ON and OFF

I have brief periods of feeling ON
so submissive
being sexually available
desirous
"normal for me"
I feel like myself.

Then all of a sudden,

I have brief periods of feeling OFF
don't feel submissive what so ever
am sexually blah
I just don't feel like me.

We all go through these periods,
I know.
But for me, it's unusual.

It's normal with huge amounts of stress
I know, but at some point,
when I'm having frequent huge amounts of stress
it seems like I should adjust and figure it out.

Things will get back to normal,
be kind to yourself and
let your Sir take care of you
and help guide you back
I know, but I am scared...

I've never had such frequent periods
of being OFF.
I'm also so fucking sick of it!

I am DONE being off.
I'm sick of being stressed.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm ready for normalcy.
I'm ready to be back to MMEEEEE!
I want yearn to be back to my fulltime submissive feelings.
I miss them, really miss them.
I'm ready to be stuck back ON!

(ok...pity party for one is over...now pulling up my big-girl-panties)

8 comments:

  1. Hugs. Those long off spells are super tough, especially life is throwing so much at you. If regular sex slips off the agenda, I find it hard to get back into the mood, even the yearning goes eventually. I don't think there is an easy fix for these periods, but I'm sure SirQ will bring you back and on.
    HUGS

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    1. I am sure too...but I know I'm totally a "use it or loose it" kinda girl.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. I have been feeling the same way recently. And I just ready to be back ON too. Maybe it's the weather? We are always under stress, what else is new?

    Hope you get back on soon. I'm hoping several more cups of coffee will help me.

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    1. I hope caffein helps!! ANYTHING. Good luck. I'm sure when I get a chance to be with Sir, that will help :)

      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. fiona, I am excited to hear how you feel as you do come back to your submissive self! She's in there =)

    XOXO Pearl

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    1. I'm excited to come back myself...I know she's in there.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. I go through that when our routine is interrupted, or when I have too much stress. I have no words of wisdom other that to say, it WILL be okay again.

    Hugs,
    Kathy

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    1. Kathy, thanks for the comment. I know it will, it's just hard when it's all of a sudden swamped with other stuff and I just feel....lost!

      hugs,
      fiona

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Thank you very much for sharing your comments. This blogland world has become so much more meaningful because of the conversations that y'all have with me through comments...REALLY!

I appreciate them all and will endeavor to answer EVERY comment if at all possible!

THANK YOU
-fiona