it feels so like I have been sexually, submissively, personally
ON and OFF
I have brief periods of feeling ON
being sexually available
"normal for me"
I feel like myself.
Then all of a sudden,
I have brief periods of feeling OFF
don't feel submissive what so ever
am sexually blah
I just don't feel like me.
We all go through these periods,
But for me, it's unusual.
It's normal with huge amounts of stress
I know, but at some point,
when I'm having frequent huge amounts of stress
it seems like I should adjust and figure it out.
Things will get back to normal,
be kind to yourself and
let your Sir take care of you
and help guide you back
I know, but I am scared...
I've never had such frequent periods
of being OFF.
I'm also so fucking sick of it!
I am DONE being off.
I'm sick of being stressed.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm ready for normalcy.
I'm ready to be back to MMEEEEE!
I miss them, really miss them.
I'm ready to be stuck back ON!
(ok...pity party for one is over...now pulling up my big-girl-panties)