Thursday, October 24, 2013

For One Week I Pledge

* * Newsflash * *
... I'm still just struggling.

I'm struggling to find my libido
I'm struggling to find my submission
I'm struggling to find...ME!

So, enough.
I'm pulling up my big girl panties and
gonna stop whining.

(at least for a minute)

I pledge...

For one week...
(let's see if this jump-starts...me!)

I will ....
Be Obedient
Be Respectful
Serve My Sir
   ...sexually
        and
      non-sexually

In return, I will be asking my Sir
for one week, 

Would you please ....
Require Obedience
Require Respect
Require that I serve you
   ...sexually
       and
      non-sexually
PLEASE.

Take no shit from me...

Expect me to step-up.

PLEASE
(do I sound like I'm begging?)

Let's see if we can jump start ... me!

19 comments:

  1. I love the pledge, Fiona. You can do it, I know you can. Obedience, Deference, Respect. *big hug*

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    1. Ya, did you notice that it was ...
      um
      very close to something you wrote recently?

      I haven't been reading much in blogland...but I read that post and it really spoke to me - thank you Mickey!

      hugs,
      fiona

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    2. Any time, Fiona. I was really glad to see those words from you. I think they will help you get back where you need and want to be.

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  2. I am cheering you on....you can do this!
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks abby...I'm cheering you on too...you just need to finish healing!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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    1. Thanks gk. I appreciate the cheer =)

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. I know nothing about cheering leading, but I'm standing on the sidelines waving those fluffy ball things :-)

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    1. hahahahah...oh DF, that was so worth the laugh!!!

      I was NOT a cheerleader either...
      and know nothing...
      but I'm thrilled to see you there...
      on the sidelines
      waving those fluffy ball things!!!! (hehehehehehehehe)
      yup - makes me giggle!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  5. fiona,

    You can do this. You can do this.

    Big Hug,
    joey

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    1. Thanks joey...I so appreciate your support!!!!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  6. You will do it, you want it enough, keep that in the forefront of your mind.

    good luck

    x

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    1. I do want it tori. I really do! I will work on not fighting myself and embracing what I need...what I want...what I need (did I say that already?)

      hugs,
      fiona

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  7. Imagine how nice those "good girl fiona"'s will feel...and it will help. You can't 'change' the healing process...but you can switch it up...and you'll have up and down days...but each day will get easier. I wonder if there's a study somewhere that shows that being submissive helps process things like this faster?

    No matter what, I hope --no...I *know*...you two will come out of this strong and whole.

    *pokes you*

    Be a good girl.
    Smile.
    Cry.
    Smile some more.

    remember you are deeply cared about, and not just by your Sir!

    nilla

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    1. Thank you dear nilla! I so appreciate your help...I really REALLY appreciate your comment and your support! I wonder...hadn't ever thought about submission and healing...submission and grieving. I wonder?

      I will work on being good...I WILL (for one week...) let's hope it's catching!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  8. I totally get the 'take no shit from me' Fiona. It's something at the core of this. One of the things I say to my husband is that I married him because he didn't take my BS. I don't want someone I can manipulate and I want to be called on my BS! I hope Sir Q takes no shit from you my friend.

    All my best. You will be ok.

    N

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    1. He does call me on my BS...and I am grateful. I want someone to keep me in check...otherwise I would run amuck!

      hugs,
      fiona

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Thank you very much for sharing your comments. This blogland world has become so much more meaningful because of the conversations that y'all have with me through comments...REALLY!

I appreciate them all and will endeavor to answer EVERY comment if at all possible!

THANK YOU
-fiona