Saturday, October 20, 2012

Thank You, Sir!

I am not an overly dramatic person and I do NOT cry easily or often.  Upon receiving some upsetting news, I free
                fell
                   into
                        a
                      well.
Maybe I was just at an especially sensitive emotional place prior to getting the news.  I sent Sir a text and said I was Angry, Frustrated, Sad and Scared.  I explained why and asked for help.  So, that's also another thing I don't do often...ask for help.  He called before leaving work and I cried.  He talked to me all of the way home and I cried.  He explained that he was going to help me.  That he would watch over me and make sure I was ok.

He walked through the door and set down his bag.  With my head down and tears streaming down my cheek, I walked over to him.  He put his arms around me and hugged me, tightly.  I felt enveloped.  He tangled one hand in my hair and I knew he was going to exert his power over me and expect me to respond.  I wasn't feeling submissive.  I was sad.  He held onto me - simply held tight.  One arm tight around my back and the other fisting in my hair.  I cried on his shoulder and he made sure that I felt secure.  

After I stopped crying he pulled my hair down so my face tilted up.  He gently kissed my mouth.  He kissed my tears.  He kissed my eyes and cheeks.  He kissed.  His lips felt like pillows - really.  It was amazing.  Now Sir does have fabulously full lips which I do adore, but he was kissing so gently.  So thoroughly.

His tongue began to explore my mouth.  My sadness was seeping out of me.  It was like he was sucking the sadness and despair from my soul.  With the hand that was fisting in my hair tightening, he moved his other hand from my back and took a firm hold of my jaw.  He pulled back and looked at me.  He looked serious, he looked intent, he looked like my Dom.  He looked more Dom-like than I can recall him looking.  

"i need to make dinner," I say quietly looking down.

"No." He says firmly.

"i need to make your dinner," I repeat and quickly heard the same response.  He kissed me again, this time eliciting moans.  He pulled my head back by my hair and put his hand on my throat. Oh, do I love it when his hand is on my throat.  He squeezes gently and pulls my hair tighter - just to the point of pain.  "We don't have much time, but you need a spanking, don't you?" he says.  My brain immediately screams "NO - I won't ask for this!" but my mouth whispers "yes, Sir."  I know in my heart, that I need his help.  I need him.  I need him to spank me.  Oh - how can I admit that to myself?

Right there in the kitchen, he spanks me six times, rapidly and firmly.  I'm starting to feel heady...starting to feel fuzzy ... starting to feel better.  He takes me into laundry room and closes the door.  I notice something on the floor.  Bending over to pick it up so that I can move further into the room, he spanks me once, then removes the item from my hand and drops it on the floor again.  I know that his intent was for me to bend back over.  Well...being the good submissive that I am, I bent right back over.  He proceeded to spank me.

"Say it, ask me fiona," he says.
"please," i whisper.

"ASK me fiona," he says.
"Please, Sir.  Please spank me," I say a little louder.

"Good Girl," he praised me.  He spanks me rapidly in the SAME spot.  Oh, I'm feeling vibrations going through me...it acts like an emotional reboot.

He helps me stand up and pushes me back against the sink. The stability of the sink is welcome, as my legs feel like a Jenga tower with too many blocks pulled out. He reaches behind me, undoes my bra, takes it off, and begins to pinch my nipples.  He isn't being gentle.  He is making sure I know he is in control.  My nipples are burning - oh they feel so good.

He takes one of his hands and pushes my hand against his enormous cock.  "Please, Sir, Please.  Please let me suck.  Please, please, Please Sir."  I am all but begging.  He puts his hands, solidly on my shoulder and pushes me down.

I unzip his pants and it's there!  Oh God - i need...I need...I...!  I kiss his head and it is so soft - silky smooth.  He has a bead of cum on the tip.  I have a sudden surge of insane excitement, need.  I'm like a kid in a candy store.  I suck .. no .. I suckle at his head.  It tastes like the best ice cream, the richest dark chocolate, a perfect carmel.  I suck very hard and take him further into my mouth fully.  He puts his hand, calmly and firmly into my hair and pulls my head onto the full length his cock.  He pushes down my throat.  Unh!  I'm groaning, I'm moaning, oh I am so close to cuming.  He's holding my head.  I am controlled.

I open my mouth, but don't completely remove his cock for fear he take it away.  I look up and see him looking down at me.  My Sir, my Dom is looking at me with knowing eyes, with love, with compassion.  I feel better.  I feel home.  My mind screams out, 'Oh, Thank You Sir!' but instead i whisper, "Please feed me, Sir."

20 comments:

  1. i do so love emotional resets.

    i haven't needed one in a while, which is a good thing for my psychological health, but then i kinda miss the way BIKSS swoops in and takes control ! heh.

    glad he made you feel so much better. and i hope that awful news that got you upset isn't bothering you anymore.

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    1. I do love it a good power exchange =)

      Don't need an emotional drop for BIKSS to take control, though!!

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  2. Sometimes i find a good 'session' is what i need, it brings calm and re-centres once i am then i feel able to discuss what im all emotional about in the first place...sometimes i just need the security of bondage to escape.

    x

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    1. Amazing - the security of bondage to escape...beautifully put!!!

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  3. You know, they say that laughter is the best medicine, but sometimes it seems that something else works better. At least, that's how things are at our house, and it appears at yours as well. Hope all is okay!

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    1. Sometimes he just knows what it takes. Laughter is definitely a great release, but there are many others that...like you said...are an even better medicine for what ails me!

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  4. What a beautiful example of how "kink" can be so much more than just play. remeber that calmness he brought to you, a wonderful gift. hugs abby

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    1. Oh yes, Kink is so much more than just play, and it can bring the most serene of calms to torrent rivers of emotion.

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  5. It is wonderful that He knew just what you needed and was able to give it to you!

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    1. Yes, I am one lucky sub to have such an amazing Sir. After this many years, I would hope we would know what each other needs...but it is always comforting when he can pull me up so perfectly!

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  6. It is just such a beautiful thing that he was able to "help" you and give you what you "needed". What a great feeling huh:) hope you are having a good weekend and what had you upset isn't bothering you anymore. Hugs to you!

    Belle:)

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    1. Thank you Belle, it is definitely a good feeling! Our weekend is going just fine...I hope yours is also.

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  7. How wonderful he knew what you needed!

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    1. Yes, Mrs. SB - sometimes he misses things completely and this was NOT one of those times!

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  8. Hot post.

    I'm sorry for the sadness, though.

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  9. Oh my goodness - I was traveling yesterday and so I missed this - but it was a good bit of hotness this morning.

    I mean REALLY good. Agree with aisha on the corollary feelings submission can provide. It is actually that feeling that I seek most of the time.

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    1. Thanks for the good part...I LOVE that you used the word 'corollary.' That made me smile and did my geeky heart good.

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  10. This is a lovely post. The sensation of being controlled, of surrender is most healing. I need the same thing from Ward when I feel the way you were feeling.

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    1. It is truly .... perfect! Funny how we just need that and THANK our lucky stars we found our Sirs to provide what we need.

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