Sunday, April 27, 2014

Goodbye Switch

Sir and I went through
our night stands and toy box yesterday.

Oh the things we found…

The salad tongs that we stole on our honeymoon
that he used to spank me with…

old playboys and penthouses

wicked nipple clamps…WICKED

Old vibrators…dildos…plugs

rope…handcuffs…restraints…

and then there were the things
we used when we would switch…

when I would top and he would bottom.

They have been relegated to the bottom of the toy box.

But when we went through the toy box,
got rid of what was broken,
got rid of what was damaged…
Sir wanted to get rid of that too.

I all but begged him not to.
I told him it was fine to keep…
what if he wants it…later?
what if he needs it…later?
what if he changes his mind?
I want to be what he needs,
what he wants.

Sir grabbed my neck,
looked into my eyes,
and told me.

"fiona, that's in my past.
There are times for everything.
That time has come and gone.

I don't want that anymore.
I want you.
I want us.
Do you understand, little girl?"

And with a squeeze of my neck,
I melted…
and threw away the things.

10 comments:

  1. Aw, I hope that eases your mind about giving yourself and submitting wholly. Lovely "melty" moment :-)

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    1. Thanks River…it certainly helps!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  2. Good for you fiona, submission is your present and future and you both know it. Leaving the past behind can be difficult but embracing the future is an amazing thing.

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    1. Thanks joolz. How is it that you knew that and i was still doubting it? UGH. The human brain is so twisted :)

      hugs,
      fiona

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  3. Wow, now that is a looking forward, no stepping back, kind of moment.
    What a way to melt :)
    hugs
    DF

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    1. It was wonderful Del. Really wonderful.

      hugs,
      fiona

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  4. Good girl. What a lovely moment for the both of you.

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    1. Thank you! it was a lovely moment. Thank you for commenting!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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  5. How could you help but melt? Sounds like a great moment. ;)

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    1. Oh Kenzie, I melted!! It rocked!!

      hugs,
      fiona

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