So I had a funny conversation
with Sir the other day after my experience
of him sending me flying and yanking me back.
"I wanted to talk to you about something."
"Well, you know"
"um, subspace isn't"
*blushing some more*
"well, um, it's is not a
mental place where I am
feeling particularly submissive"
"It's, um…more of…
well it's more of a place of…
no, it's a place that I've gotten to where
I feel like I'm having an out of body experience,
where I'm floating away.
It's when you've spanked and spanked me
and I'm tense or moaning or reacting a lot and
then all of a sudden I'm quiet and completely relaxed.
For me, it's that moment when I transition, that
I no longer feel the pain, it's only pleasure and
it's like I'm watching myself experience the moment.
I don't know."
"Well, then, I'll have to make sure you
stay out of that space, won't we?!"
"Sir? But I love it. It's such an amazing experience."
"Yes, but I want you to feel all of it.
I want you in the moment…not beyond it.
I want you to respond every time.
OK, I don't think this conversation
went the way I was expecting it to,
but I am grateful that we are clearer
on definition…as clear as I can be when
I can't explain it very well.